Stinkin’ Thinkin’, Insecurity and Reality , Conversations with Emily (10)

People hide the bad things in their lives. If it’s pretty raw, people get shocked. I think it is important to know that the Christian community is made up of all of us and that we all start at different places. 


For the person whom has messed up, they can find encouragement, validation, and hope from reading someone’s story, someone whom has been there, dealt with it, and overcome. We need authentic overcomers who prove to us that we can make it too.

Good Friday in Picture Form

The Backstory

My oldest daughter was struggling with fully picturing what Christ did when He died on the cross. She wanted to grasp the concept, to feel it live and breathe within her. She had a relationship with God, but she wanted a greater understanding of the crucifixion; and she wanted her belief to become more meaningful and real. She continued to express her desire to God. She had wished and prayed for this for quite some time.  Her belief seemed more like a cerebral, academic knowledge rather than a living, heart knowledge.  This was prior to and during the years when my daughter was a student at Biola University (Christian).

A Picture in Her Mind

My daughter LaVonne was in class one day when the professor directed the students to listen to the song, Here I am to worship. They were to think on the words and write whatever came to mind. It was a time to ponder and meditate. As these words on the recording were being sung, “And I’ll never know how much it cost, to see my sin upon that cross,” a picture began to form in her mind. It was like a video playing, all other thoughts were pushed aside. Her mind was full. She was viewing identical cookie cutter figures and they were moving about and walking.  The images were formed in shape somewhat like cookie cutter figures, without gender and all the same size. Then she noticed that one figure was different than the others.

Healing will Remove the Silent Scream: Conversations with Emily (9)

The story continues. I learn more of “Emily’s” personal story over the course of a few days. My admiration for her begins to grow.  This woman is resilient.


I learn Emily has faced some obstacles bravely and has been strong when she could have crumbled.

Spiritual R & R

Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 (KJV)

BLOG god is love edit 2TAKE A LITTLE REST and GO DEEPER WITH GOD (6)

It often commands my attention when action is part of what God requires of man. In this passage in Matthew, we see that an action is at the beginning long before rest can be experienced. ‘Come’ is active. To come is the first step in obedience and in finding relationship with God. This action is common to change. A seeking of God takes personal initiative. The ‘unto me’ shows that He is the object of the coming. This is key to finding God in every circumstance of life. We miss out on so much when we stubbornly resist God’s loving persistence, His offer of hope, and His desire for oneness with us his beloved. ‘Come unto me,’ He says. His arms are tender.